This is my 1st post on this blog. It's been awhile since I could tell anyone else other than my husnad how I've been feeling. It still hurts. will hurt, everyday. I know that tomorrow will come and I have to be strong. It's not easy to be strong I tell ya. I've found books, songs, facebook groups and my oh so wonderful 925 group. They are not a support group for grieving moms, they are a group of FRIENDS. True friends that are stitched into my scar along with my child. They were along for our ride, every doctor appointment, every time I had a picture to post to show how big my 'little man' was making me.

Here is a song that we will play every year on my birthday, ever sad yes, touching, yes, harder to hear becasue it's on my birthday, yes. But it gives me peace knowing he's ok. He's not sad, not in any pain, doesn't feel alone. He knows he has me, his dad and grandparents and my family but he also has his 925 family looking after him.

"Who You'd Be Today"

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?

Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.

[Instrumental Break]

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.

Some day, some day, some day.

 

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